| Location | Meriden |
| Age | 29 years |
| Cause of Death | Overdose |
| Date of Birth | 26/02/1979 |
| Date of Death | 12/11/2008 |
| Visitors | 592 since 24/03/2009 |
| Creator |
Samtony, we share a beautiful daughter she is now three and looks more like you then i could have ever imagined. you loved her in your own way and i know that you did. you and i shared a special relationship and when you died a big part of me died right along with you. you were human. you made mistakes as anyone did, and i forgive you for your wrong doings. kyleigh will always know how great you were, until we meet again...ill always love you because you are her father... we may of had our differences but i still wish things would have been different. Rest in Peace.
thinking of you every day. our daughter just turned 5. wish that you could see how happy she is and what wonderful things that she has accomplished.....
wondering what happened between us. did i ever even know who you really were? was our daughter just a replacement for the daughter that you could not see? your family denies her. she has autism and i need you so badly right now that it hurts. i need you to watch over her and to see that she gets well, she has been through so much pain because of you and your family and she is no replacement for anyone. she is beautiful. god i wish you could have only seen how she has improved in her speach....i just wish i could have told her you'd be proud of her and meant it.
i reach to heaven for answers
in which only god can tell me
like why you left the way you did
and about the horror which befell me
i turned to you and you betrayed me
and id wished you'd pay
but i just cant overcome my guilt
and i could not make you stay
people say i shoulde hate you...i dont
people say to forget you...i wont.
i mourn your death with each passing day
but it hurt the most on the day god swept you away
youve been gone a year and i cant forget the good times
when there were tormenting bad days that would make a well man blind
why do i have these feelings...why do i feel this way?
i swollow back the lump in my throat as i lay in bed and pray
God give me answers and see me through
when you were alive you were horrid to me sam
so why am i missing you?
DON'T CRY ANY MORE
Don't cry any more tears for me, I am at peace, I'm finally free.
Like the eagle in the sky, I am soaring, so please don't cry.
I know you love me, I love you too,
But my time was over, was finally through.
I have ascended to a better place,
Which is not confined by time or space.
To those that loved me, I did not fall,
I only succumbed to a higher call.
Do not mourn me, I am with you still.
I'll be with you always, from dawn-----until.
Copyright � 2000 Kathi Toups
WHY HER ....?
NOW THAT YOURE GONE CHEERING FOR YOU IS ALL THEY DO
YET I DONT WANT TO BE THE ONLY ONE TO BOO AND IM THE ONE WHO HAS JUST CAUSE TO.
IM JUST SO CONFUSED BECAUSE YOU ARE GONE
YET YOU MADE ME OUT TO BE THE ONE WHO WAS WRONG
YOU CHOKED ME YOU BEAT ME. HOW COULD YOU MISTREAT ME?
I CALLED YOUR DAD THE OTHER DAY..BUT EVERYTHING IS TOTAL DISARRAY...KYLEIGH GOES FOR SURGERY MONDAY...BUT THEY SEE HER IN A COMPLETELY WRONG WAY...BECAUSE OF YOU. YOU SAID SHE WASNT YOURS,BUT YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED BEHIND THOSE CLOSED DOORS. I WASNT TO BLAME. IVE GOT WAY TOO MUCH PERSONAL SHAME. I CAN ONLY PRAY THAT TOMORROW WONT BRING MORE OF THE SAME. APPARENTLY YOU HAD MUCH TO HIDE AND THROUGH ALL OF THAT I WAS BY YOUR SIDE. I GAVE YOU MY HEART. I THOUGHT THAT I HAD YOURS BUT OUR DAUGHTER IS GOING TO BE THE ONLY ONE IGNORED . ITS HER YOUVE HURT WITH ALL OF YOUR DECEIT. BECAUSE ONE DAY SHELL HAVE TO FACE THE ORTIZ ELITE. PLEASE UNDERSTAND I WANT ONLY FOR THE BEST FOR HER. BUT I CANT CORRECT THE WORDS THAT YOUR TONGUE HAS SLURRED.
WHY
ALL I CAN ASK IS WHY
ALL THAT YOU DID WAS MAKE ME CRY
SITTING HERE FIGHTING OLD GHOSTS
WHEN YOUVE HURT OUR DAUGHTER THE MOST
NEEDING ANSWERS THAT JUST CANNOT BE
WHY DID YOU PUT THIS ALL ON ME
SHE IS SO INNOCENT
AND YOU LIED
YET WHEN YOU WENT AWAY I JUST CRIED AND CRIED
NOT KNOWING THE TRAIL OF LIES
YOU LEFT FOR ME TO LIVE IN
BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE KNEW WHAT YOU WERE WITHIN
NOT SURE HOW TO FEEL ANYMORE
WHEN YOUVE HURT ONE OF THE PEOPLE WHOM I ADORE
FIGHTING MYSELF WHEN I WANTED TO BELIEVE IN YOU ONLY THE BEST
AS FOR MY FEELINGS NOW? ONLY GOD CAN FILL IN THE REST
`*♥~†~ONLY THE BEST~†♥*
A heart of gold stopped beating two shining eyes at rest, god broke our hearts to prove he only takes the best, god knows you had to leave us, but you did not go a lone for part of us went with you the day he took you home to some you are forgotten to others just a part of the past but to us who have loved and lost you the memory will always last.
YESTERDAY~ LEONA LEWIS
I just can't believe you're gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise
Even without you by my side (ooh yeah)
When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it i'm reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart
Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (plans we made)
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know (no no)
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away (oh oh), but they can never have yesterday
You always used to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or atleast how the story goes (but I never believed them 'til now)
I know i'll see you again i'm sure
No, it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night, one more day
One more smile on you face
But they can't take yesterday
Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (no no)
They can take the music that we'll never play
(they can take the music that we'll never play)
All the broken dreams (oh, my broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (oh oh oh)
They can take the future that we'll never know (we'll never know)
They can take the places that we said we would go (huh oh oh)
All the broken dreams (all the broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
I thought our days would last forever (but it wasn't our destiny)
'Cause in my mind, we had so much time
But i was so wrong
Now i can, believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday
Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (ooh ooh)
They can take the music that we'll never play (no)
All the broken dreams (all the broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (yesterday)
They can take the future that we'll never know (yeah ah)
They can take the places that we said we would go
(that we said we would go)
All the broken dreams (all our broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
(they can never have yesterday)
better in time by Leona Lewis
(Ooooh)
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time
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